“You will never be completely at home again, because part of your heart always will be elsewhere. That is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place.” – Miriam Adeney
10 months are coming to an end. In one week I will already be home again and start my life in Switzerland. This year has been so fast and at the same time I saw so many things. I went all over the East Coast and even had the chance to travel to Hawaii. But most importantly I met people that I can call my friends now and learnt about a different culture.
Saying bye is the worst. And that’s what I have to constantly think about now. “Is this the last time I will see them?” I already had to say goodbye to some of the first friends and to be honest, it sucks. You’re wondering if this is even the last time you will ever see them. Of course, I would like to travel back to the US one day, but you won’t see each and every one again. I tell people to visit me in Europe, but unfortunately there’s a whole ocean in between.
The only way I can describe the feeling is a total mixture between excitement to finally come home and sadness because you leave everything you called home this past year. Of course I don’t want to leave, of course I don’t want to say bye to the people I started to love this year and that also made it as great as it was. But if I am honest I am also extremely excited to go home again, to finally see everyone again and live the life I am used to.
The countdown is going down and the last week will be done in a minute. This leads to stressing about packing and last things I want to do. Now I just hope all the packing goes well and I have the time I need to do everything.